Sometimes I start to blog and then ask myself “what do I really have to say?” Narcissism can be the historian’s curse (Gag!) I know that sounds self-inflating, but hear me out: I journal/blog/what-have-you because I’m obsessed about history and my own place in it. I want a legacy. (as if a blog is a legacy, hah!)
I’m not sure if this is healthy or not, but it keeps me motivated and I don’t see any direct harm in it.
However it means I often feel the need to fill silence with my own voice, and it’s a habit I don’t always admire. It’s nervous chatter most time, adding nothing to the conversation or the matter at hand. I want to experiment in allowing silence to be natural. So this next week I’m going to focus on active listening and observing. I’m curious to see what, if any, changes occur.
I have a theory. I’ll let you know how it goes.